Some Time

Sometimes I’m like a child.

I’m scared that you don’t

love me any more

when you raise your voice at me

you're like daddy in the past scolding me

Sometimes I want myself

to be a sugar daddy to me

protecting and guiding me

and making the world all sweet

but it isn’t……

so I want you to be

my sugar daddy

Sometimes I want a brother

who will watch over me and

not touch me where it hurts,

but instead I get people saying

look after yourself.

But, I need someone to look after me

not baby me, bully me, ignore me

but to love me, to know me

Sometimes I’m a china doll

ready to be broken by a feather

Sometimes I tell half-stories

because I haven’t lived a particular story yet

Sometimes I’m a four year old girl

sensitive and receptive

or a ten year old boy

boisterous and challenging

Sometimes I’m the Green Man

giving secrets to the garden

until it dies

Sometimes I’m an old crone

trying to tend wounds

but the soldier won’t allow it.

Sometimes I have

a sister in my shadow

who watches

Sometimes I have

a sister whom I love

and she dies.

At times I was a leader

At times I was a child

There were times when

the world went crazy

the property of no-one.

Sometimes I would fly

sometimes I made things fine

there were times I laughed

and times I cried.

Sometime I was a child

but I thought no-one cared

Some times I think

not enough people in the world

care enough about

giving and taking

and so the hurt child

still lies deep within

Written at age twenty three

(c) Lai Chew Yarn

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